Tuesday, May 24, 2011

I'm in a funk

I guess I shouldn't be surprised. It's not easy being laid off even if you know it's going to be better in the long run. But almost an entire month has gone by and I haven't written a single blog post. It's not like I haven't been doing anything either. I've done two triathlons, finished my last two weeks of work, consulted with a lawyer, drove to Las Vegas and back for a WLS convention and looked for a new job.

So I have plenty to talk about.

But I find that I have to force myself to do anything but the basic "have tos" and that means the blog has gone by the wayside. I'm also behind on many things and I haven't even started any of the projects I was planning to do during my forced time off or gotten in all those extra workouts.

I have managed to watch the entire first season of Bones though. (It turns out I had missed half the episodes.) I'm spending a lot of time on the internet as well, not to mention playing a LOT of solitaire. This is how I hibernate when I don't want to deal with things.

So, on the one hand, I'm annoyed with myself for being so lazy and unmotivated. On the other hand, I have forced myself to do a lot of things I didn't want to. Every time I do that, I am a bit proud. Like today I made myself go to Sports Basement to get my wetsuit repaired. Not that they would do it -- they told me to go to the lady in Santa Cruz that everyone has told me to go to.

I didn't have enough willpower to make myself drive to Santa Cruz though. I told myself I had to go home and clean off my desk and catch up on my email. But instead I caught up with Mafia Wars, read some FaceBook and played some more solitaire. Then I drove to Concord to pick up Mini-Mac from "Tech Week" only to find that I was 2.5 hours early. So I drove back home, played more solitaire and then drove back again.

Now it's after midnight and I'm still up, still playing solitaire, and will probably not get up in time to do my planned morning run. (Though hopefully, by saying that out loud, I will be shamed into doing it. Even if it turns into a noon run instead of a morning run.)
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